Sunday, February 26, 2012

Suck it up!

That is what I feel like telling myself. I am going to say it every day. :-) Maybe I will put it in vinyl lettering in my kitchen! (Kidding of course) As I was listening to the talks in Sacrament Meeting, that was the overwhelming message I felt. (They didn't phrase it that way!) The talks were on happiness, and I realized they were just for me. I have been wallowing for a little over a month. Yes, I need time to grieve. Yes, I can be sad about my situation. But, I also need to be a whole person again. I am forever changed because of this experience, but I can also look to the future with excitement instead of dread and trepidation. I am ready to do the things I love again. I am training for a marathon which will give me purpose to getting my health back. I am starting to think about what to put in my garden boxes. I am in a great stage of life and I am enjoying my extra time with Bryce. Have you spent time with him? He is one funny kid!! He makes me laugh every day. I have great friends and family who love me. I have a Heavenly Father who knows me and loves me and wants me to turn to Him. I have a Savior who died for me and understands ALL of my heartache. I will turn to all of them.

March is my birthday month, so it is a great time to find myself again. I just found out I will be getting a weekend alone with my amazing sweetheart! (Thanks Ranell for taking the kids!)  I made a yummy, healthy dinner tonight that actually made me appreciate that I can cook again. I am not setting a million expectations of myself, I just want to get back to being the person and mom I love to be.

1. Active
2. Healthy
3. Fun Loving
4. Patient with my imperfections and others
5. Striving to be close to the Spirit
6. Kind
7. Silly
9. Quick to Apologize and Forgive
10. Laugh at my mistakes!

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Love and Compassion

I think Love and Compassion is a great title to describe the first half of February!

First of all, I was loving the sun!! We had a good week of nice, warm, not normal February in Oregon weather. So, we took as many chances as we could to go on bike rides and go to the park. My good friend called me to go the park and it was kind of a crazy day, but I couldn't pass up the chance and I am glad I did! Bryce was pretty excited that he learned the monkey bars! Dallin had a non-birthday party with all the boys in his class who were in town (8 boys total!) and I was glad the weather was nice enough for them to play outside most of the time. I sure love our location on a dead end street!

We have had lots of family time, and our focus has been on showing more love to one another. We went to a BYU basketball game with good friends. BYU won and it seemed to be more BYU fans than University of Portland fans. And yes, we are all matchy matchy. :-) (Dallin and Jeff's shirts came in the nick of time!)

Valentine's Day Kelly style- I have been trying to be more accepting of the fact that I am not a naturally creative person. I love to celebrate holidays because it is fun for the kids, but I have a hard time figuring out what to do. I am also frugal (ie cheap!) so it is hard for me to spend money. This year I found a cute "Love" sign on sale at Safeway of all places and these cute heart shaped notepads. Emily had suggested that we do love notes for each other and since I had not gone shopping for buckets, we made do with paper bags. I think the heart attacks on the doors turned out cute! We did a "fancy" dinner with sparkling cider and I made waffles with strawberries and whipped cream. It was a fun night and I am happy with how it turned out.

My sweetheart- Jeff and I have been lucky enough to spend extra time together this year. When Bryce is at preschool, we are able to go to lunch together sometimes. This included yesterday (no pictures though!). The other thing we were able to do this year that I haven't mentioned is we went to a concert for his birthday. I think it was the first time I was truly able to surprise him with something he really liked. :-) We went and saw City and Colour one of his favorite singers. (Don't worry if you haven't heard of him.) It was fantastic and we ended up getting the only seats. (There was probably about 30 seats, the rest was standing room-it was a small concert hall.) This was in the middle of horrible January and just the distraction we needed! We also had a fun Valentine's date on Saturday night. We went out to dinner with Ranell and Brian (we usually swap babysitting with them, but this time opted to go together and paid a sitter!) and then went to a dance at our building. I don't have pictures (need to get some from Ranell!) but there was a good turnout and it was a lot of fun. I hope we can make this a tradition!

Compassion- Emily received an award at school for Compassion. I can't think of a better characteristic I would rather have her honored for. She definitely takes after her Grandpa John and is living his legacy. She is so helpful and thoughtful. I love any time I get to spend with Emily. We were able to go on a field trip to the Children's Theater together. She is my little play buddy and I love her!

 Well, that is February so far. Whew!

Wednesday, February 01, 2012

10 years- Really?!

Happy 10th Birthday, Dallin Jeffrey Marker!

Yes, I am that mom saying, "Where has the time gone?" I will never forget the day I became a mother. My road to motherhood was not as smooth as I would have liked and then I was disappointed to end up with a C-section, but when I held that sweet baby for the first time, none of that mattered! I couldn't believe my dream of being a mom was coming true! I loved so much about those early days, months and years. The C-section allowed me to spend more time sitting on the couch then I think I would have. I loved watching his first smile (at 4 weeks) and then every first after that! I loved teaching him new "tricks". He was a quick learner and was a lot of fun. He has always been very mild and kind hearted. He is obedient to the extreme. Even when he doesn't want to do what I ask, he can't NOT do it. It's very funny. (Not to him.) He loves sports and never takes off the Green Bay Aaron Rodgers jersey he got for Christmas. He loves to play sports in real life, but his new obsession is the Xbox Madden game. He loves to give the play by play.

He is great with his brother and sister, some of the time. :-) He enjoys playing football and soccer with them. He has been a true joy to raise. I am so grateful to have him as my first son. What special memories and fun we have shared. I will have to add more pictures.