Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Tears of Motherhood

I know I am not a great blogger, and the main reason is because I am self-conscious of my writing ability, or should I say, my lack thereof. Anyway, today was one of the hardest days I have had, and I thought I needed to document it, regardless of my skills. Here goes:
We are leaving for Lake Powell tomorrow, and I spent the first part of my day running errands. Around 4:30, I finally had a chance to start packing. I went outside to take the trash out and get some clothes out of my trunk. Dallin immediately went outside and grabbed Emily's trike. (She was sleeping, so I guess he thought it was fair game.) He just rides up and down the sidewalk. I saw him speeding back toward me and it was then that I noticed my neighbor's truck had its trailer hitch sticking out into the sidewalk. I tried to warn Dallin, but it was too late. His leg hooked the hitch and he started screaming. I ran toward him. I didn't think it would be too bad, but I pulled up his shorts and gasped.
There was a one inch long gash about a half inch wide and about a centimeter deep. I was so terrified I froze. I held him in my arms and walked back and forth for a minute. My neighbor was there and she helped calm me down. She went inside the house with me and we laid him on the couch. He was still crying and didn't want us to touch it. It wasn't bleeding too badly. My neighbor told me to look for gauze and athletic tape. I was able to find both and our other good friend showed up at that moment and helped me bandage Dallin up. I thought Dallin would need stitches so I called the Dr. first who told us to come in. He said they could do stitches there if we needed them. I called Jeff to let him know what was going on. My good friend and neighbor, who is a paramedic, came and looked at Dallin and told us he definitely needed to go in and she thought they would reccommend stitches. She told me to call her if they were going to do stitches because I would need support. She took Emily for me so that I could take Dallin on my own. Dallin was very brave in the Dr. office. They told me immediately he would need stitches. Jeff asked if he could make it in time and I didn't think he could, so I called Amy. She came in to give support. When she told me I would have to hold Dallin down, I started bawling. No mother should ever have to do that to their child. He screamed through the numbing medicine, and at one point Amy asked him if he could really feel it, and he stopped for a minute and realized the pain was gone. :-) The relief in his eyes was priceless. From then on, he was all smiles. He actually thought it was kind of cool that he couldn't feel anything. He then preceded to fall asleep while they were stitching him up. I wish I had a picture of that. I have never felt such pure love and heartache at the same time. I never want to watch my child go through that much pain. Yet, I know it will happen again. Probably not in the same way, but it will happen nonetheless. We are here to learn and grow and make choices. Some will bring us happiness, and some will bring us sorrow. I think I understand a little more how my parents felt when I made decisions that weren't the best. I hope they know how much I love them and appreciate their unconditional love. I hope Dallin knows how much I love him no matter what. I will hold his hand and cry with him whenever necessary.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Enjoying Life's Journey

Well, as I get ready to endure the craziness of airport security, I wanted to write some thoughts and goals down. I read a book called Enjoying Life's Journey- Choosing Happiness along the Way. It just reminded me that I have control over my happiness. I am determined to have a positive attitude and enjoy each moment, especially with my children. Unfortunately 2 of my good friends each had a parent die this week, so it has caused me to rethink life a little bit. Life is definitely too short to stress over little things. I want to do all I can to make others happy, including myself. At Girls Camp I encouraged the girls to never be the reason that someone else is looked down upon. I want to issue the same challenge to myself and anyone who reads this. Let's lift each other up! We are all truly on the same side. I have so many things to be grateful for, especially wonderful family and friends. I love all of you!!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Vacation, vacation

This is for you, Suzie P, my loyal reader and friend. :-) Anyone else who visits this site, please feel free to comment! I just thought I would do a quick update. This has been a whirlwind 3 weeks. The first week I spent at Girls Camp and had an awesome time with my teenager friends! Thanks to my good friends willing to watch my munchkins, and my sweet hubby who took good care of them while I was gone. I know they loved being with their dad. The second week we spent 4 relaxing days at the lake with our good friends. We had so much fun playing in the water and just enjoying time as a family. I don't think I have had that much downtime in my entire life. :-) I got a lot of water skiing and wakeboarding in and Jeff was able to get up on an air chair. I will put up pics when I get back from California. Which leads me to where I am now. I am lucky enough to spend both of my parents' birthdays with them. It has been fantastic! We first went to Knotts Berry Farm with Grandma Nise and my big sis Crystal and Tony and the girls joined us. It was so fun, although Dallin was a little disappointed that he couldn't go on many of the roller coasters. I am trying to use this to my advantage to get him to eat more food. Am I evil or what?! That night, we went to a very cool Pirates dinner show which mesmerized my little Emily! Shelly came down from Utah to join us, which was a nice surprise. On Saturday, we went to an outdoor musical production of Sleeping Beauty. Even though it was past her bedtime, Emily was singing and dancing- so cute! The rest of the time here has just been spent relaxing at my Aunt Marlynn's with her and her wonderful kids and playing at the park near my parents. It was been great watching Dallin and Emily become better friends as they rely on one another. It has also been great for my to just enjoy being with them. So, there you have it, my vacation so far. I miss all of my friends back in Oregon!

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