Wow, I am in a state of shock right now. This post is probably going to be completely random, but I need to put some thoughts down on paper. Poor Jeff, about 10 minutes before my C-section with Emily, I just started freaking out and crying. I had been totally calm and then all of a sudden it hit me that I was about to have a major surgery. This fear is starting to hit me a little bit now, so I am trying to focus on all the positive things.
First of all, what a miracle this entire pregnancy has been. I still can't believe we didn't have to have any fertility meds for this baby. It has been the most noneventful, boring pregnancy you can imagine, and I am so grateful. He is an active little kicker and I love knowing he is there and I can't wait to meet him.
Dallin is so excited to have a baby brother. This is special for me too because it reminds me of all the feelings I had when I had him. He is such a sweet, loving little boy. He is really nervous for my "belly to be cut open" but I just keep reminding him that I don't feel it. :-) I know he will be a great help when the baby comes.
Emily has been practicing on all the little newborns around us (sorry Sarah) and I think she is finally learning how to be soft. :-) She is going to be the second mommy and I can't wait to see the love in her eyes for her baby brother. She has been so much fun and growing up so quickly. (I just wish we could figure out her sleeping issues, but not much we can do right now but be patient.)
Jeff is an amazing dad and I can't wait to see him with another little boy. He really steps up and fills in where I just can't. And he does it without a word of complaint.
My mom is here and that is such a blessing. She is already treating me like a princess and not letting me do very much. The kids just love her and Dallin ran into her arms at the airport. She is my angel and takes care of me and the kids. It would be difficult to have another baby without her. I hope she knows how loved and appreciated she is.
I will admit I am still a little nervous to go from 2 to 3 kids, but I am excited to see how it all works out. I can't wait to meet my little co-habitator and see his cute face. If I were to guess I am sure he looks just like his brother and sister did. Jeff sure has strong genes!!
We have had a busy 2 weeks. We have spent a lot of time at the park enjoying the nice weather.
Doesn't Sarah look like a teenager? She amazes me!
We also went to a farm, and Emily was so darling feeding the baby bunnies.
After the farm, we went to a different park, where I ended up staying for 4 hours. It was so beautiful and the kids were having such a good time, I didn't see any reason to leave. I think I saw most of my closest friends at some point during the day, so it was one big party! Emily spent most of the time in the mud and loved it. Dallin hung out in the sand and also rode his scooter and played with the rocket that Sarah was smart enough to bring. It was truly a wonderful time. Sometimes I think I try to do too much in one day, but this day just worked out perfectly. I am grateful I have such good friends. I feel very lucky. I was also able to make about 10 meals to put in the freezer because one of my good friends, Kirsten, was kind enough to help me assemble all the meals. I feel a little more prepared now. :-)
I had a great day yesterday, going with good friends to get a manicure and a pedicure. I have finally officially stopped biting my nails after 29 years of the disgusting habit (yeah me!!).
So, sorry this was so long. Wish me luck tomorrow! Any guesses to the weight of this baby? Dallin was 6lbs 1 oz and 19 1/2 inches long full term (I only gained 15 lbs). Emily was 6 lbs 12 oz and 17 3/4 inches long and was 2 weeks early. (I gained 23 lbs.) This pregnancy, I am one week early and I have gained a whopping 32 lbs-ugh!! So, what do you think? And, we are still taking last minute suggestions for the name.
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