Suck it up!

That is what I feel like telling myself. I am going to say it every day. :-) Maybe I will put it in vinyl lettering in my kitchen! (Kidding of course) As I was listening to the talks in Sacrament Meeting, that was the overwhelming message I felt. (They didn't phrase it that way!) The talks were on happiness, and I realized they were just for me. I have been wallowing for a little over a month. Yes, I need time to grieve. Yes, I can be sad about my situation. But, I also need to be a whole person again. I am forever changed because of this experience, but I can also look to the future with excitement instead of dread and trepidation. I am ready to do the things I love again. I am training for a marathon which will give me purpose to getting my health back. I am starting to think about what to put in my garden boxes. I am in a great stage of life and I am enjoying my extra time with Bryce. Have you spent time with him? He is one funny kid!! He makes me laugh every day. I have great friends and family who love me. I have a Heavenly Father who knows me and loves me and wants me to turn to Him. I have a Savior who died for me and understands ALL of my heartache. I will turn to all of them.

March is my birthday month, so it is a great time to find myself again. I just found out I will be getting a weekend alone with my amazing sweetheart! (Thanks Ranell for taking the kids!)  I made a yummy, healthy dinner tonight that actually made me appreciate that I can cook again. I am not setting a million expectations of myself, I just want to get back to being the person and mom I love to be.

1. Active
2. Healthy
3. Fun Loving
4. Patient with my imperfections and others
5. Striving to be close to the Spirit
6. Kind
7. Silly
8.Friendly
9. Quick to Apologize and Forgive
10. Laugh at my mistakes!