Friday, December 01, 2006

The Mom I want to Be...

What a crazy week this has been. I have felt so sick that much of the time I have literally laid on the couch and watched many children(including, of course, my own) just destroy my house. I didn't even have the energy to ask them to pick up after they were done playing. Each night, as Jeff would call to say he was on his way home, I would find it in me to clean up just that day's mess. He has been an angel, even did the grocery shopping for me. The only other thing I have barely had enough energy for is to blog hop. This is where I go from blog to blog reading about amazing women and their cute families. I have learned a lot and found many fun ideas that I want to implement in my own home. Unfortunately, I also spent a lot of time thinking about all of the things I am NOT doing. I am NOT a scrapbooker, I am NOT a seamstress, and I am NOT a crafty person. I am in awe of all the beautiful things all of these women create, on top of raising their children. I start to think that I should be doing all of that, too. Then, I just feel overwhelmed, and want to crawl into bed and do nothing. Well, today that all changed for me. I am still going to go to these blogs and learn from other people, but I am also going to focus on being the best mom I can be. I am definitely more left-brained than right-brained and enjoy puzzles, word games, books, math, science, etc than I do crafts projects. And I realize now there is nothing wrong with that. The sad thing is I have felt so wasted that I didn't even pick up my scriptures since Monday. Luckily, that is what I did today. I felt very strongly that my children were sent to me for the gifts that I CAN share with them. Even though I may wish I was more artistic or craftsy, I am not, and beating myself up about it is not going to help the situation. I need to be the best Me, and if I do that, then I will be giving my kids what they need. Does this make any sense? I appreciate any comments you make. I truly learn a lot from all of you.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kelly,

I actually posted a post a while ago about this. It is the greatest gift I have ever given myself, to be that myself. To give my kids a mom. Because when I was so worried about the mom I wasn't, I could not even give them the mom I was, does that make since. I love that other women have wonderful talents, and heck I might try them because there might be some I might like. But, I am also no longer going to do things I don't like, just because I think I should. You are the greatest Gift to your kids, and you can pass on to them a love of running, being a great friend, a wonderful wife, a mom who loves to play etc. And when they are parents they will pass some of that on, plus more. Like you, I love being a mom now, and when I hear or see something that I wish I could do, I think great for them, man I really should do...... more since I love to do that, but one day, when my kids are older and my time is a little more mine, than I will do those things.

I love that you blog, I love that I get to know your true inner self, and I love that even though I don't live close.

Sarah M said...

Hey! I have actually found your cite through Sarah before!! I will now be a faithful reader.

I totally understand the "I have many great ideas and do none of them" things. I am a GREAT thinker, and not as good of a doer as I would like to be!

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Anonymous said...

We were only sent to fill the measure of OUR own creation. Isn't that wonderful? OUR own creation, not the mom next door's or across the street or sitting next to you in Relief Society. It's very comforting when you think about it. :-)
Stacey
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