Sunday, December 18, 2011

Conquering Fears

Today was my very first piano recital. I always wanted to take piano as a kid, but we were too busy playing sports. :-) I taught myself the right hand and then when I went to BYU, I took one semester of piano. That was 12 years ago! So, now that Bryce is in preschool, I feel I am at a good stage to learn. I have really enjoyed it, but I forgot that I would have to perform in front of people. I am not good under pressure. My first marathon was horrible- remember? I start to panic and it is tough for me to recover. That being said, I am also a finisher. I do not quit. So, today was the day. I have been practicing and practicing, but I was very nervous. Right before I went up, I felt like I was going to throw up. My teacher said if I really didn't want to do it that I could pass at the last minute. But again, I am not a quitter!

It was a beautfiul Christmas concert, with many ranges in talent. It was fun watching the kids and even some of my adult friends play. We were almost at the end, which added to my anxiety. So, I followed Dallin, who of course, played beautifully! Then it was my turn. It started out alright, and then all of a sudden, the music didn't come as naturally. I had a hard time keeping track of where I was. I did get through it, but not as well as I would have liked. I am a little bummed about that, but I am not dwelling on it.  I am proud of myself for trying and for not giving up. Hopefully, it will get easier!

10 comments:

Emily Foley said...

Congratulations! It is not easy to put yourself out there as an adult, I'm sure it was awesome--mistakes and all. You DID it and you didn't quit. Just think of the lesson you're teaching your kids.

ellen said...

that's so awesome kelly! you should be so proud of yourself. and from someone who's played in a bazillion recitals sometimes it goes perfectly sometimes it doesn't

Kelly(M&M) said...

Thanks Ellen and Emily for your supportive words. I was pretty bummed yesterday, but feeling better today.

Jennifer said...

I didn't know you were taking piano lessons! I remember you saying you wanted to do that someday. I'm so glad your "someday" has arrived.

Kelly(M&M) said...

Jennifer, you were my inspiration for taking lessons! I will never forget walking up to your door and listening as you were practicing piano during the quiet time that Tyson was at preschool. You are right, I said then I would do that "someday"! :-)

Stephanie said...

You did awesome Kelly!

Kelly(M&M) said...

Thanks Steph! I am sure it was a little painful to watch (and hear!). And I am glad it is over! Alice did great!

Emily said...

I'm so impressed! Thank you for being a continual inspiration.

Molly said...

We grow so much more from doing hard things than easy things(you know that already) so pat yourself on the back! I feel bad I didnt ask you about it yesterday. I want to hear details on our run(tomorrow right?)

Kelly(M&M) said...

Emily- Thanks for your kind words!
Molly- Don't worry about not asking. :-) I will see you in the morning!