Monday, November 17, 2008

It's hard.

That's all I can say about this month. I knew it would be tough for me but I didn't realize just how much I would think about my dad. In the past year, there has not been a day gone by that I didn't think of him, and I am grateful for that. I hope I never lose that. I want him to always be a part of me and remind me who I want to be. My kids mention him almost every day, especially Emily. My organizing project for today and the next couple of days is to finish my 2005 family digital album. This is the year he was diagnosed with cancer. This is the year my world was turned upside down. This was the year we really focused on family, making as many memories as we can and pulling together as a team. This year holds many amazing pictures but they each pull at my heart strings. How do you capture it so that you never forget? That is what I want to do.

5 comments:

Jadie said...

My heart goes out to you, Kelly. Can I have Bryce over tomorrow or Wed.? Maybe that'll help the project go faster. I'll call you tomorrow.

ped crossing said...

It is so hard to lose the ones that you love. There are memories you will never lose, especially when they have been captured in a picture.

Rachael said...

I know exactly how you feel. This month is always hard for me because this is the month my Mom passed away. My thoughts have turned to her more often than usual these last few weeks. Be so grateful that you have lots of pictures. That is the one regret I have. My Mom was the one always taking pictures, so we have very few of her. I would love to have a whole scrapbook full of pictures to thumb through when I miss her. I think that going through the pictures and remembering him will help you through this time. It is okay and healthy for those memories to pull at your heartstrings. It is natural to feel that way when you loose someone you dearly love, and that feeling will remain for a long time (it has been 10 years for me). You will find that these times will happen less frequently and will be easier to deal with as the years go by. I found a really great article about grief. It talks specifically about loosing a child, but I think it applies to loosing a parent as well. Check it out here: http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2006/Feb-26-Sun-2006/living/5987837.html
Sorry about the hugely long comment.

JP said...

I'm thinkin' about ya. What a beautiful way to remember your dad and your wonderful family.

Brittany said...

I'm so sorry Kelly... I can't even begin to imagine. I'm glad you have lots of photos to remember all of the great moments you've had with your dad. You're in my thoughts, & i wish i could give you a big hug... take care!